Giving what it takes in life and deal with it , it just like this..
Going round and came back to the starting point where you and i were never met, it seem likes an alternate mode of vision, vision of lies whisk lies that hide the facts and truth but only realization may shed light upon it..how much? how often? how? An answered once Socrates said " one thing only i know, and that is that i know nothing."
faith, trust, relationships, feelings are no longer the same, It is moving...Dynamic, i would say so. how it changes within minutes makes human itself a most interesting subject..unknown, full of different views, ways that we never observed often made us flabbergasted. It is confusing enough if we lost in this multitude of ideas generating massive works.
A massive work may mark a whole knowledge that ever existed. From the very beginning till the day we breath are ever increasing in this seeming countless minutes not before the minutes and second to come, new things were enlightened. This particular moment, even when we sleep, though may seen some dream, it is generating the story of dreams where we continue till we awake and vanish as we may even realized it yet new lights generates after the this lost of inquisition.
Road to travel to reach a place , a destination, is still far..I'm now tormented for it...much hopes were depend on conscience of being persistence..In the end how far I've reach? Infinity variables lies along the road, much to be judge is the view from others. Why they generates such impact in ones life as one may just ignore and head thee own way. In the abyss, lies a an unsecured side that overweight our balance and we didn't dare to take what it is ...therefore away for escape , join the crowd and left the pathway that blinded by mist and what we knew from the beginning.. Is that how it is?
A move of consequences forms effect that preserve as well as destruction. We just a mere creatures that has limited spatial existance that we ourself may knew or some may not knew. One interesting that enlighted me is that the diversification of experiences that people choose for themself. Some may just go through as a passer by, other seek oppurtunities at every stage of our sphere that we rooted in for now, while some reborn themself with might that came to challenge against the odd that come..for some reason, I am....retrieve with all the unknows that shattered by the edge, come to an end that conquering may be the answer i need to find but what "realm" shall i mastered it?
Covering unlimited ...
Separate by our naive thoughts ...
Burn by the star ...
Habour our lifes with master pieces ...
Extant of existance...
It still incomplete, somehow it feels like living...
Written it last August, right now I feel like posting it...
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Contradict My Own Paradox
*** CHAPTER ONE ***
Journey of Unrequited Feelings
Just like what had happened,it does hurt when looking someone you like and admired much left just like that and yet the the last word that were planned to be voiced trapped in heart..the last word that spoken was merely nothing but an encouragement that i doesn't wanted to hear..I'm in dilemma,no, it just doesn't seem right.My appearance at the place where just like crushing the gate or an uninvited guest to attend.A pathetic feeling arose within as i feel like alienated though i tried much closer and closer.My thoughts were asking me why sudden change in them,could it be the long holiday or the uncontact words that keep the relationship..yet,today i still ponder with a feeling of dilemma and sigh that i picked up yesterday.
My world and journey...I begin to wonder, a month ago, i started to think..lots of things came in my mind. I hardly interpret what was going on, as journey set itself once again in the institution..I still missed home..I feel i wanted to travel far and explore with all the world;fantasy perhaps that drives me to think this..yet not much that i prepared myself for that.I wanted to do it someday, maybe just dissappeared out of the normal routine scene to look for something that i hope will make me more of understanding in term of the things that I'm trying to look for..as I write this, a song I've listened goes like this"I've been walking in the same way, as i did.. Misssing out the cracks in the pavement..."----I don't know what to do----
I'm thirst of something I'm not sure.I wonder aimless but with hope that lights my way up.
I'm not confused or others where the rest mistakenly view me. I'm a mere traveller in their mind.How much I know and I care..I'm forseen to seek as i already knew the outcome of what they think.I waited long to sieze the day;how many hours that i already hold in my hand. I feel like holding bit pieces of time that i utter myself to skim through what I've done. Minutes of fragmentize particles that enclosed the time lights the way and therefore I move on.Another dimension started to open as new stories or part of a story were waiting for me to enter and explore.What lies next..walls of rainbow coloured lines the surrounding and the entity I'm were seemingly begin to show bits pieces of stuctures that I can't seem with naked eye..could this be.. an Atom!!
The next thing I knew;lots of particles that begin to spread,I feel nothing but the thrill..I'm too scared of what happend next.."you need to have persistance in your decision with confident, don't run away."As I lie down to bed..a friend who sit beside told me so...yes.I've remebered,I was planning to buy some books but I'm still puzzle..the uncertainty that hold everything crushing the every ideas that arose.Ahh..In the end, I did what i want.Later on we waited for bus..patient are needed, every cover of peole sitting in bench or standing were waiting for something. A destination they want and they take their chances of this time and went on waiting...I was again..dive in the time..not sure of what happened next.All I know, a story awaits for me to uncover,a flash of lights that turn all the colourful lines of wall turn pitch white,closing my eyes with all the high intensity of light beam that struck upon.A new page is about to start,next thing I knew... I've travelled.
Journey of Unrequited Feelings
Just like what had happened,it does hurt when looking someone you like and admired much left just like that and yet the the last word that were planned to be voiced trapped in heart..the last word that spoken was merely nothing but an encouragement that i doesn't wanted to hear..I'm in dilemma,no, it just doesn't seem right.My appearance at the place where just like crushing the gate or an uninvited guest to attend.A pathetic feeling arose within as i feel like alienated though i tried much closer and closer.My thoughts were asking me why sudden change in them,could it be the long holiday or the uncontact words that keep the relationship..yet,today i still ponder with a feeling of dilemma and sigh that i picked up yesterday.
My world and journey...I begin to wonder, a month ago, i started to think..lots of things came in my mind. I hardly interpret what was going on, as journey set itself once again in the institution..I still missed home..I feel i wanted to travel far and explore with all the world;fantasy perhaps that drives me to think this..yet not much that i prepared myself for that.I wanted to do it someday, maybe just dissappeared out of the normal routine scene to look for something that i hope will make me more of understanding in term of the things that I'm trying to look for..as I write this, a song I've listened goes like this"I've been walking in the same way, as i did.. Misssing out the cracks in the pavement..."----I don't know what to do----
I'm thirst of something I'm not sure.I wonder aimless but with hope that lights my way up.
I'm not confused or others where the rest mistakenly view me. I'm a mere traveller in their mind.How much I know and I care..I'm forseen to seek as i already knew the outcome of what they think.I waited long to sieze the day;how many hours that i already hold in my hand. I feel like holding bit pieces of time that i utter myself to skim through what I've done. Minutes of fragmentize particles that enclosed the time lights the way and therefore I move on.Another dimension started to open as new stories or part of a story were waiting for me to enter and explore.What lies next..walls of rainbow coloured lines the surrounding and the entity I'm were seemingly begin to show bits pieces of stuctures that I can't seem with naked eye..could this be.. an Atom!!
The next thing I knew;lots of particles that begin to spread,I feel nothing but the thrill..I'm too scared of what happend next.."you need to have persistance in your decision with confident, don't run away."As I lie down to bed..a friend who sit beside told me so...yes.I've remebered,I was planning to buy some books but I'm still puzzle..the uncertainty that hold everything crushing the every ideas that arose.Ahh..In the end, I did what i want.Later on we waited for bus..patient are needed, every cover of peole sitting in bench or standing were waiting for something. A destination they want and they take their chances of this time and went on waiting...I was again..dive in the time..not sure of what happened next.All I know, a story awaits for me to uncover,a flash of lights that turn all the colourful lines of wall turn pitch white,closing my eyes with all the high intensity of light beam that struck upon.A new page is about to start,next thing I knew... I've travelled.
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