I don't know how everything is going to turn out to be..to say that everyone is still miss the old days we had or is just I'm the one who can't just let my past go-days with H4T31...full of memories that i felt that nothing could replace it..therefore closing all my doors for the new and unknowns,reculse from being to explore to others and tried to remind myself that H4T31 is still my treasure..Indeed it is,but how long can it last? Does every member of H4T31 still thinking each other?Or instead, it is stored in their past which they labelled it "Best Team Ever" or "Best memory togather" or "Best friends Ever" inside somewhere in their brain,though dump in somewhere inside the cerebrum then begin their new life in new place or in new environment or being left with no choice but to accept a new style or ways to develop further more of themself.. thus time pass by...with no sound nor movements of others..Its fading..
Is it ironic? No, Why? Nobody cares..everyone is changing day by day; by time, places, people, surroundings and others..there no more connections..eventhough we're still seeing each other, things will not be the same, it is not the way it is anymore...if one day when the time comes , as members of H4t31 meets again if they plan to, will it be the same ? Will we laugh like the way we did before, will we have the same manner we used to be? For that I'm unable to imagine..for i cannot bare to feel it..I don't want to lost of of them, am I going to face this or it will never come these day...somehow its resides as a question for fearing -Change-...that is all about ...it is where it all starts..For I going to change too,I not sure....even with the conditions now, I hardly even able to identify what is going on...my place, my surroundings, the people seems to be differents..am I the one who is trying to look different or I just want to retain what it is..any of the two answers is just going to reflect one thing..Selfish, i guess...I am, am I? I'm selfish for not caring the things around me anymore, the events,the people, the ways...Of all it had happened, I pay no heed... I'm resort to this way because some part of me still long for the days with H4T31, I can't let it go, therefore this is what happen ...reculsiveness or introvert, yet I'm not giving it a sigh, some part of me still place hope for H4T31 as my everthing, a memorable treasure..No,I'm not regret with being introvert or being different of everyone..I'm still have H4T31 even though with this tough conditions, I believe in them as I believe they still believe for one thing - H4T31, Best Team Ever - as well as the "one piece" as a trademark for all of us,never to be forgotten..never to be fade through the tide of time..This is what I'm holding..believing..
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There are time when we are all crying from the pain of aspiring something and crying from having nothing to aspire, I wonder ...which is more difficult..all I know..everyone is running desperately, aiming for some thing; they were strecthing their hand towards something which is invisible to the eye, even realized that it cannot to be reach, they still moving towards it..with all they had..and I wonder what was I doing...I want to move even futher, more faster than ever, concentrating on that...I want to aim what I want, I'm not lost because I'm confuse, or don't have purpose..It is because of ..all I realised till now and from the day it began,from the day i started to questioned, perhaps I found my answer.. no..It is my answer, there are no more perhaps but a clear and direct voice from my heart and thoughts:
"I don't want to prove anything,
I just want to do with passion."
* Till we all meet again some day*
From Yours Faithfully,
Lowei,
H4T31 KML 08/09
Members of Onee Company
